AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH.
firstly, i would like to thank xinyi and evelyn for hugging me this morning.
although i was in PAIN.
& also thank yiting for another hug. she was th second one that made me smile today.
& vivian too. for making me smile without meaning to. LOL. so funny okay. you cannot drink the water properly. then look so poor thing. the whole bio paper blank. must thank me for th answers okay? :X
& evelyn again. for comforting me in borders. hopefully i didnt get any tears on your uniform, yea?
& zhixiong for getting me tissues.
& damien, i guess. for those "inspirational" messages?
& xinyi for comforting me th whole day, ytd. must have been tiring huh? paiseh. ):
oh guess whad? joel was th first person to make me smile today. suprising huh?
cause i was dreaming during maths paper 1.
then i turn around and joel smiled at me.
then i jus smiled back.
ha. so weird. the first one sia. o.o
hahs.
and i think i forgotten to write my name on the freaking maths paper 1 okay.
omg what is wrong with me sia.
AAAAAGH.
i'm so messed up.
*&^%$#@
after th exams, rosi, kimmy, eve, zhixiong and i went to parkway for sakae sushi.
but then the buffet starts only at 3!
and we were there at like.. 1.30?
._.
then we went to borders.
at first we wanted to find th karma sutra.
but cannot find.
kuku luh. TT.
then we went to the homour section.
and read sick books.
hahaha. damn funny okays!
see see.




this is just RETARDED. airbag? omfg.

i was like disturbing zhixiong with this. damn kuku.

is this some kind of joke?

hahs. still got more. lazy upload . :x

got one phrase from eve's book. " I LOVE YOU. ( the three most beautiful HORRIBLE words in the world! ) "

hahs.

okay, then.
this stupid guy working there said we cannot sit between th shelves.
then we moved to the kids place.
then i finished that sexy phrases book ardy.
got bored, then took out my earpiece.
started listening to songs.
then started.. crying. ._.
at first they were shock okay.
i wish i could have seen their faces. :X
then evelyn sat beside me and let me cry on her shoulders.
literally. (:
thanks. :D
walaooo.
i cry in parkway 2 times in 2 days.
wtf is wrong with me?!!?
-slaps myself-
AAAAAAGH.
shittttt.
stop thinking about ittttt. TT.
-slaps myself-

then after that we went sakae sushi.
DAMN FUNNY OKAY.
zhixiong was like, super paiseh.
he was like, wa, i'm not in bnss okay!
then i said, at least we never shout orgasm right!
then kimmy SHOUTED, ORGASM!
LOL.
DAMN FUNNY.
then zhixiong was like, WTHH.
then i shouted, MASTURBATE.
then rosi also, WTHHH.
then kimmy shouted, ROSIANA STOP MASTURBATING.
that was the WORST.
then kimmy was eating chawanmushi.
then me and evelyn were like, ahem, kimmy what you eating uh.
why white white one? waaa. very nice hor?
then kimmy started laughing and cannot eat!
LOL.
then we were like, come on kimmy, eat it. you know you want to, tell us how it taste like okay!
zhixiong was super disgusted.
hahs.
then me,eve and rosi purposely STARED at kimmy eat that.
then i say, wa, very hot right, so FRESH.
DAMN funny.
then then then, when rosi, eve and zhixiong were paying.
me and kimmy made a plan.
then when they almost paid,
we shouted, ORGASM.
and ran to minitoons.
making them looks like idiots. :D

lols. then going home that time, rosi and kimmy missed 15.
HA.
lucky for them, zhixiong and eve didnt go onto th bus but decided to wait for them.
and my bus came straight away.
LOL. suckers. :X

ANDDD, in th bus i listened to my emo songs again.
AND THERE IS NOTHING YOU CAN DO ABOUT IT, ROSI.
hah! :D
if you delete them off my phone i will cry MORE.
lols.
anyway, th ppl in the bus prolly thought i was some retard.
listening to music and crying in th bus.
mm.. maybe i am.
i'm a complete retard.
send me to th hospital.
ask them to erase my memory.
EVERY SINGLE ONE.
so all the pain will be gone..
just take it all away. PLEASEEE.
maybe i shall be like that 15 yr old girl that jumped down th building.
yay.
who wants to jump with me?
AAAAAAAAAAAAAGH.
fuck this life. ._.

anyway, time to type out some emo lyrics.
i'm not gonna write out th title.
if not rosi is gonna delete them from my phone.
D:

ever since you left, i've been a mess.
i'll say this once i'll leave you alone but i gotta let you know,
i wanna get back to the old days where the phone would ring and i knew it was you.
i wanna talk back and get yelled at, fight for nothing, like we used to.
oh hold me, like you mean it, like you miss me, cause i know that you do.
oh, i wanna get back, get back with you.
i'm not gonna lie, i've been a mess since you left.

how could you turn and just go?
and leave me standing so cold.
how could you want to move on?
like what you have for me is gone.
i never quit my love for you, baby thats the truth.
too hard for me to move on when i feel this way for you.
but if you really loved me, why did you leave that way?
heaven knows every second i'm away from you, i find it so hard.

i always needed time on my own, i never thought i'd need you there when i cry.
and the days feel like years when i'm alone.
when you walk away, i count the steps that you take.
do you see how much i need you right now?
when you're gone, the pieces of my heart is missing you.
i miss you..
i've never felt this way before. everything that i do, reminds me of you.
i love the things that you do.
we were made for each other.
out here forever.
i know we were.
all i ever wanted was for you to know.
everything i do i give my heart and soul.
i can hardly breathe, i need you here with me.

my one desire is to be where you are, now and forever.
my one desire is to be with you again.

instead of holding you, i was holding out. i should have let you in, but i let you down.

its killing my heart cause i wish i knew why.
love doesn't have a meaning when you hurt me so bad.
never thought that i would have to let you go this way.
should have followed my heart, but i fell for the game.
life just will not be the same without you.

what we had cant be replaced.
dont let our memories fade away.
keep me in your heart always.
you made me believe i could do almost anything.
stood right by me.
through the tears, through everything.
i'll remember you.
and baby thats forever true.
you're the one i'll always miss.
never thought it would feel like this.
i'll be there for you.
no matter what you're going through.
in my heart you'll always be.
forever, baby.
i'll promise you .
i wont forget the times we shared, the tears we cried.
you'll always be the sun in my sky.
it may be fate that brings us back to meet again, someday.
even though we go seperate ways.
if the day should come where you need someone.
you know i will be there.
dont there ever let there be a doubt in your mind.
cause i'll remember you.

DONEEEEEEEEEE.
i have to stop before i cry again.

fuck la. i goddamn love you so much.

what hurts the most is that you left me without reason.
i have no idea what i did wrong.
you left me when i needed you the most.
i love you so much.
all i want is to be with you.
i know i should move on , instead of pinning onto the past.
but i can't.
the past is all i have left of you.
no matter how painful thi is, i'll wait for you.
my wish is to take my last breath in your arms.
i want to be with you again, forever.
you have no idea how much you mean to me.
the moment you walked away, everything came crashing down.
and i've been running ever since.
running to you.
wanting to run straight into your arms.
but maybe its true.. dreams just never come true.

ah. fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck.
shit.
bye.