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Date : Friday, July 31, 2009
Time : 9:28 PM

You just take control of me ;


Yo . Changed blog skin . LOL .
Lazy to blog about the week luh .
Update later .

Byebye . ^_^V


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Date : Sunday, July 26, 2009
Time : 9:43 PM

All i want is you ;


Yo . Last minute post .

Congrats to Xinyi and ShihYao ! :D
Finally got together after such a long long long time . :)
Thanks to .......... ? :3 Heh heh . Kidding kidding ! :X
Psst , they officially became one yesterday ! :D

Anyway , last long okay !
You guys better last long long long long and celebrate my birthday with me ! :D
250709 , eh ? :3
Can't wait for 251009 .
xD .

LOVE YOU MUM ! :B
DAD , you still suck . ._.
LOL .

OKAY BYEEEEEEEEEEE !

I love you Bi . :)
We'll last long too . :B


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Date :
Time : 9:41 AM

Gotta see you tonight .


Yo . :D
Surprised to see me blogging so early on a sunday ?
Well , it cause i was actually supposed to go to church to help my mum and a few other people , from her cell group if i've not mistaken , to take over the selling of food before service today .
But my dad told me not to go , cause i'm not well . ._.
So i'll only be going for youth service .
Thus , i have nothing to do from now till 10+ .
:X

So anyway , i shall blog about yesterday . :D
Around 3 , i walked over to Elonah's house .
Met her at the guard house and we walked over to the skate park nearby .
Watched a number of guys do tricks . Frankly , they were falling most of the time . ._.
When we got tired of watching them , we walked back to her condo .
Slacked a little , went up to her house .
Used comp for awhile , helped her with her swim suit . LOL .
Went home at around 5:15 ?
Rushed like crazy .
Then my bro and i went to raffles to meet our parents .
& Saw Milken at my house bus stop . Lols . o.o
Anyway , ate dinner at some expensive japanese restaurant .
Forgot the restaurant name . :X
Ate till i was totally stuffed .
Pfft .
Went to River Island .
Bought a shirt , belt and tank top .
Then went home .
:D

Okay , time to go onto facebook .
Bye people ! :B


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Date : Friday, July 24, 2009
Time : 7:23 PM

If ya feelin' me , put one hand up .


I never ever thought we'd end up like that .
Never thought i'd go behind your back .
But everybody needs a second chance .
Like you and i , you and i .
And now i realise you're the only one .
I apologise for the things i've done .
I guess the love bug has got me stung .
Its you and i .

Sorry i put you through , but i don't want regret .
This is a very sad , sad story .
I hope it ends okay .
Baby boy , could you please forgive me at the end of the day ?


I'm crazy over Varsity Fanclub now .
Their songs own , big time ! :D
Hee .
Ask Bi if you don't believe me . ;)
Okay byebyebye . :B


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Date :
Time : 4:28 PM

Blow my heart up ;


Hello .
I've switched back to my old number .
If i have yet to inform you my number , tag me .
Thanks . :3


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Date :
Time : 1:09 PM

I'm broken , you're tired .


I find it hilarious when i see people trying to make their blog posts seem profound by regurgitating countless fancy vocabulary , but using them in the wrong context .

Seriously people , it totally induces VOMIT , kay ? :)
If you don't know how to use the word , or simply don't know the defination word at all , please don't use it . ._.
Just cause you splurge on vocabulary here , doesn't mean you will pass your failing english .
In fact , i think you're making it worse .
Go ahead , write that way in your compositions . I'd like to see you fail your O Levels .

Also , little pathetic bloggers encouraging and praising themselves on their own blog makes me nauseous .
If you're a failure , then you're a failure . No point lying to yourselves on your blog , kay ?
Self praise is no praise . What do some people not understand about that phrase ?
I don't find that phrase hard to decipher , neither do i find that phrase superficially profound ( unlike some posts ^_^V ) .

Come on . Stop wrecking havoc in the cyber world , okay ? You've done enough damage in REALITY .

Yuckz .
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Yo , okay anyway . Hello .
I'm at home again .
Hi . Hi . Bored .

Changed blogskin awhile ago .
Oh and i changed it back , cause well , i find this nicer . :B
So i wasted 'bout 1 hour editing that skin . ._.
Wonderful .

Okay bye lil' people . :B


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Date : Thursday, July 23, 2009
Time : 8:29 PM

I just can't get enough ;


Some quiz results . :D

http://www.quizbox.com/personality/test82.aspx

Your view on yourself:
You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You are a true romantic. When you are in love, you will do anything and everything to keep your love true.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

The seriousness of your love:
You like to flirt and behave seductively. The opposite sex finds this very attractive, and that's why you'll always have admirers hanging off your arms. But how serious are you about choosing someone to be in a relationship with?

Your views on education :
You may not like to study but you have many practical ideas. You listen to your own instincts and tend to follow your heart, so you will probably end up with an unusual job.

The right job for you:
You have plenty of dream jobs but have little chance of doing any of them if you don't focus on something in particular. You need to choose something and go for it to be happy and achieve success.

How do you view success:
You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.

What are you most afraid of:
You are afraid of having no one to rely on in times of trouble. You don't ever want to be unable to take care of yourself. Independence is important to you.

Who is your true self:
You are full of energy and confidence. You are unpredictable, with moods changing as quickly as an ocean. You might occasionally be calm and still, but never for long.

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http://www.quizbox.com/personality/test81.aspx

Here is the analysis:

1 . You've got great self-confidence and you're full of charm. Most guys who get to know you will be attracted to you. You are far from sweet and proper; your intriguing personality fascinates them. Most guys find it easy to fall for a girl like you.

2 . You don't really care about other people's feelings. You do things the way you want and usually think only about yourself. You are easy-going and love to have fun, but you can be irresponsible as well. You are not keen on serious discussions because they can make you remember that life isn't always about parties.

3 . You are a bright, cheerful and bubbly person. You are thoughtful and considerate, and like to have fun. Everybody feels comfortable around you because of your pleasant nature. When you walk into a room, people's eyes are likely to be drawn to you because of your charm.

4 .Your peers think of you as a fun person, but sometimes you can be a little irresponsible. You can be somewhat childish, and can try to ignore the fact that you will one day need to really grow up and be a mature adult! Perhaps you could start reading good books; they might help you look at the world in a different light. You do want to be taken seriously, right?

5 . Your boyfriend believes that you are a strong and independent person. Your confidence and cheerfulness make you an attractive person to be around, but sometimes you need to pay more attention to what other people, including your boyfriend, are thinking.


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http://www.quizbox.com/personality/test80.aspx

Here is the analysis:

Love at first sight is your style. You are not fussy about who you fall for, and often there seems to be no rational reason for you deciding to love someone, it just happens and you'll follow your heart. When you do fall for someone, you fall completely. Your love is somewhat child-like, or what people like to call "puppy love". While following your heart is important, you should also remember to use your head occasionally.

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http://www.quizbox.com/personality/test79.aspx

Here is the analysis:

Bright and Cheerful

You are always cheerful and charming. You never get too serious with people when they're around, but when you are alone, you think carefully about what they have said. That's because you don't want anyone to see you being too somber. Your personality means you have a lot of friends and you are often the center of attention. Many people who fall into this category become artists and movie stars, perhaps fame could be yours in the future as well.


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http://www.quizbox.com/personality/test78.aspx

You value your friendships: 55%

You love your friends very much - so much so that it's actually quite a worry. You may not be able to cope very well when you do lose somebody's friendship. You are a very sensitive and fragile person, and are therefore likely to get upset easily. You care for your friends and are willing to do anything that they ask you to do. Sometimes this can make your friends think that you are a bit of a nuisance. Nevertheless, people do really love you because your highest priority is your friends.

( 55% only meh ? >< )
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Jealousy test . :O

http://www.quizbox.com/personality/test73.aspx

Jealousy Level: 55%

You are a jealous person but you try not to let it show

You often get very jealous of others but you are successful at controlling your emotions publicly. When you feel that other people are winning things that you deserve, you get very upset, but you won't hurt anybody else by making a scene. Your jealousy is private. You might, for example, cry yourself to sleep at night when you get really jealous of someone.

( So true :/ )
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http://www.quizbox.com/personality/test60.aspx

How Deep Is Your Love ?

Depth: 80%

You have him in a corner of your heart. Don't lie to yourself; he's your special guy. Take good care of your heart. You still have a long way to go. Always remember that love has two edges. Being apart for a while might be a good chance to proof his love to you.

( Being apart your head . )

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What if your boyfriend goes out with another girl?


You are pessimistic and get disturbed by things that don't really matter. If your boyfriend goes out with someone else, that's the end of your world.

( Lols . Wtf ? )

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Okay done for now . :)


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Date :
Time : 8:11 PM

Boy , look at me . I wanna look into your eyes .


It's something about your eyes , your hair , your smile , you drive me wild .
Boy , you're all mine . I'm the luckiest girl in the world.
And you're so picture perfect .
You stole my heart , boy , but you're just so worth it .
Now i can't get you out my mind no matter how hard i try .



I'm sorry .
Cause i love you .

Wanna be the reason that you never look for love again .
Baby boy , i wanna be your lover , your best friend .


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Date :
Time : 10:06 AM

My world is all yours ;


I can't stop loving you loving you loving you , oh no .
Cause i don't wanna end up in your rear view .
Wanna be someone you can talk to .
Baby , i never wanna lose you .
No , there's nothing i won't do .

So i'll watch you like a movie , i'll sing you like a song .
Read you like a story if it takes me all night long .
Keep you like a secret , i'll tell you like a joke .
Its true , its true .
Yeah , i'll love you like i always do .


Yo .
Lols .

Monday ;
Forgot what happened in school . o.o
Oh , PE was a complete waste of my one hour .
They make us stay back from 4:30 to 5:30 doing nothing but wandering around the indoor sports hall doing nothing . ._.
After PE went to find Hj and Xj in tech view .
Left at 6:30 .
Went home , ate .
Met Elonah outside my condo for awhile .
I screamed at something she told me .
LOL .

Tuesday ;
Sick . Didn't go to school .
Woke up at 6:20 .
Decided not to go to school on the way to school .
LOL .
Reached home , watched my mum wash the car ..
After that SLEPT .
Till 11 .
Rushed to siglap to see doctor .
Met Elonah . She brought me to her usual doctor .
After that went parkway to meet my mum .
Ate , camped at borders while waiting for Kimmy and Evelyn .
Accompanied them while they ate Pastamania .
I went home while they went for clb .
The rest of the day was spent reading a book .
Lock and Key by Sarah Dessen .
Nice book . Gonna read it after this .

Wednesday ;
Went to school .
Kept sneezing . ._.
After school went to Simei with Elonah , Kimmmy and Evelyn .
Ate at 18 Chefs . Hehe . :)
I could hardly taste my food . Z .
I hate being sick .
Oh , in school , i stole Damien's house keys .
He claimed that he doesn't need them cause he has a maid to open the door for him .
So i just took the keys with me . :3
While i was eating , he called me and told me his maid was not at home .
And that he was outside his house waiting .
Laughed like HELL .
Serves you right , bobby . ;3
By the time Xinyi arrived , i was more than ready to go home .
So sick .
Elonah decided to come with me as i was taking a cab home and her house is near mine .
She smoked for awhile then we caught a cab .
^_^V
When i reached home , i collapsed onto my parents' bed and fell asleep .
And the rest of the day was mundane . Blahblahblah .

Today ;
Didn't go to school .
Sick again . D:
Obviously , or i wouldn't be here typing . ._.
Lols .
Hmm , not sure what to do today .
Probably finish up my book and study Venice !
Oh oh , and visit the doctor . :(
Okay byebye .
:/


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Date : Tuesday, July 21, 2009
Time : 10:17 PM



Sarang hae yo means i love you . 代表这我离不开你。每分每秒一刻声音,只有你撒娇会让我微笑。sarang hae yo 只对你说。 I will love you and forever more . 我答应,baby, you will see , 每一刻我都属于你 , yeah baby .


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Date : Sunday, July 19, 2009
Time : 5:56 PM

when i'm alone , i tell myself i'll make it on my own ;


Should i stay or should i go ?
Should i ask ?
Don't wanna know .
Who're you thinking 'bout ?
What is it that keeps me hanging on to every word you say ?
What is it that keeps me holding on to you ?

Because you're stuck in my head like my favourite song .
You put the scene on pause , it still plays on .
Without you here , i get no where .
I ask , why not me ?

Could've been , could've had .
How could you do that and not look back ?
You couldn't wait .
You can't be sharing the same dreams as me .
I wouldn't lie , i wouldn't cheat on you .
I wouldn't do all the things that you'd do .
I wouldn't ever give your love away .

ARGH .
I have a biology test tmr .
Shitz .
:(
Byebye all .


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Date :
Time : 5:00 PM

What is it that keeps me holding on ?


I've learnt from my 2 friends , what is meant to be yours , one way or another , will be yours .
What is not meant to be yours , no matter how hard you try to fight for it , simply won't be yours .

Sometimes , i guess we will just have to accept it and move on .
This applies to friendships , relationships and even materialistic items .
It's hard . Very hard .
Sometimes close to impossible .

I've learnt a lot these 2 years . Falling in love , falling out of love , letting go , forming friendships , repairing friendships and ending friendships .
& and hardest of all , moving on .

Letting go doesn't mean giving up , it means moving on. It is one of the hardest things a person can do . Starting at birth , we grasp on to anything we can get our hands on, and hold on as if we will cease to exist when we let go . We feel that letting go is giving up and quitting , and that as we all know is cowardly. But as we grow older we are forced to change our way of thinking . We are forced to realize that letting go means accepting that some things are not meant to be and starting over . We also learn that there is an important difference between giving up and letting go . It means maturing and moving on , no matter how hard you have to fight yourself to do so .

You don't need strength to let go of something . What you really need is understanding , and time . A lot of time . Loving someone is setting them free , letting them go . We must be willing to let go of the life that we've planned , so as to accept the life that is waiting for us .

Letting go is something one has to learn . Holding on comes easily , effortlessly . We do not need to learn it . Although , sometimes , holding on is what makes you stronger .

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Wondering why i'm posting this ? I know you all are .
I'm posting this for posting sake , accept it and keep all questions to yourselves .
Thankyouverymuch .


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Date : Saturday, July 18, 2009
Time : 5:20 PM

The way that it was and could have been surrounds me .



Vivan's wonderful drawing . Of a dog , pig and frog . LOL . HAHAHA .


Elonah and Hui Juan . :D ! Last saturday . :)


Has been really long since i posted pictures .
:)


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Date : Friday, July 17, 2009
Time : 11:08 PM

I used to think that i was strong , until the day it all went wrong .


I think i need a miracle to make it through .
I wish that i could bring you back .
I wish that i could turn back time .
Cause i can't let go , i just can't find my way .
Without you i just can't find my way .

Hello people .
Update time . :)

Monday ;
Can't rmb what happened in school .
Met Hui Juan , Xinyi , Xuan Jin , Joel and Elonah after school at Joel's house void deck .
My phone died there . ._.
Walked over to mac for lunch and to charge my phone . Only got to charge it for like , 5 mins ?
Z . T_T .
After that some stuff happened ... Blahblahblah .
Went home with Elonah .
Talked crap . Hehe .

Tuesday ;
Not gonna elaborate 'bout school . Nothing out of the ordinary .
Went to parkway with Kimmy and Evelyn after school .
Ate snow ice then went for clb .
Darling went too . :)
Ran around during break . Hehe .
Took bus home with Jer after clb .
Some stuff happened again .. Blahblahblah again . ._.
Then walked over to 7-11 . Then home . :)

Wednesday ;
After school met Xinyi , Hui Juan , Xuan Jin and Elonah .
Went over to tm to get my fringe trimmed .
After that went to kfc . :)
Lols .
Xinyi , Hui Juan and Xuan Jin went home right after we ate .
I followed Elonah to T1 . She wanted to look at rings . Lols .
Went home after that .
Some stuff happened after that . Blahblahblah . ._.
Cheer up noob .

Thursday ;
Went to tech view after school with Hui Juan , Joel , Xuan Jin and Elonah .
Xinyi at 4:30 .
Evelyn came soon after Joel left . Lols .
Slacked awhile there .
At around 5:30 , Hui Juan had to go off .
Xj and her went off . Evelyn , Xavier ( whom also came later ) and Xinyi went off before them .
Elonah wanted to go to City Plaza . Couldn't accompany her as i had tuition .
Followed her to Joel's house void deck .
Waited at the second floor for some reasons . LOL .
As they were waiting for Xuan Jin , they walked me to my bus stop .
They bought ice cream , and i had one free . ^_^V .
Missed my bus and was late for tuition . Lols .
Late by 40mins . Z .
Was having a bad headache and knocked onto many people .
Was so dizzy . Don't know why .
After tuition , went home , did homework and slept .

Today ;
School was boring . Couldn't concentrate in lessons today .
After recess i was quiet in class ma . Cause i was tired .
Then i suddenly asked Mdm Wong for pass to go toilet .
Stayed in the toilet for awhile .
Called Elonah . LOL .
But she having test so nevermind . :3
Then suddenly when i walk out of the toilet i see Yi Ting running out of the class .
She was like , what happen to you ?! You okay or not !?
Then i jus walked pass her and nodded .
Then she pull me , " OI ! What happen to you ? Seriously what happen ? "
Then i pulled away and walked into class .
At first the whole class was like laughing ma . Cause they anyhow gong jiao wei ( according to Evelyn :X ) . Say what i vomit , faint blablabla . ._.
The moment i started walking to the teacher's table , the whole class silent .
Seriously . So quiet . All staring . Don't know for what . Z .
Maybe cause my face very black bah . o.o .
Cause was tired ma !!
D:

Went to E!hub with Hj , Xj , Xinyi and Evelyn .
Joel went home to change & meet his stead first .
Took bus there . Something happened . Blahs .
Arrived too late to buy tickets for the 2:35 Harry Potter movie .
Thus , we didn't bother watching .
Went to eat . I wasted $7:90 .
Ate only like 4 spoons . Z .
After that Joel and his stead came .
All of us walked over to pasir ris park .
Saw darling's friend while walking thr . o.o .
We slacked there while Joel and his stead walked around .
Evelyn went off first .
All those noobs don't know how shuffle cards !
HAHA . But Xj know le luh .
Thanks to me . xD .
Kidding . Lols .
He thought all of us one card trick .
:)
Elonah came to meet us for awhile .
Played 2 games of taiti with her , Xj and Chris .
First Xj won , then Elonah won .
LOL . I had sucky cards . :X
Who cares . ._.
Slacked somemore . Till about 5:30 .
Xinyi , Hj , Xj and i went off .
Joel stayed with his stead .
We met Yi Xiang and his friend at the bus stop . Lols.
Took bus 21 . Something happened . Blahs .
Hj , Xj and i dropped off at Evelyn's house to pass her back her A Maths textbook . :)
I went up to her house .
She forced me to eat chocolate . Lols .
Slacked and talked to her at her house till 9pm .
Cabbed over to Jer's house to take something he made for me .
He folded me flowers . :) Hehe . Thanks ! :D
Lols .
He walked me home .
:)




Yeah , boring week . Whatever .
>_>

Haven't eaten in 2 days ! :D
With the exception of ice cream and drinks luh .
And that 4 spoons of pasta .
Lols .
^_^V .
I'm not emo-ing or whatever luh . Just not hungry .

Like in March ! :B .
Didn't eat for 'about 2 - 3 days . Excluding pop corn and m&ms . ._. Cause of movie .
Lost 2kg leh . :3
Hee hee .

K whatever . Byebye .

I don't know what i should do now .
I don't know where i should go .
I'm still here waiting for you .
I'm lost when you're not around .
I need to hold on to you .
I just can't let you go .


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Date : Tuesday, July 14, 2009
Time : 7:03 PM

And i feel now that you're the one i need ;


HAPPY BIRTHDAY BENEDICT HWANG SHIH YAO ! :D
Hee hee hee . :3
Happy 14th birthday pig bro !
Grow up luh ! Hee .

Okay , imma go now . Before my parents catch me using the comp ! :X


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Date : Sunday, July 12, 2009
Time : 10:39 PM

Lie to me ;


I feel so lost now . So confused .
I don't know what to do , what i'm thinking about or how i'm feeling now .
My head is such a mess .
Why do i feel this way ?
I need help . I need someone to save me . :(
I need to eradicate all these ominous feelings .

It's impossible .




& there's so many things that i want you to know ..


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Date :
Time : 5:40 PM

Looking back , i realise it was always there , just never spoken .


I shouldn't love you , but i want to . I just can't turn away .
I shouldn't see you , but i can't move , i can't look away .
I don't know how to be fine when i'm not .
'Cause i don't know how to make a feelings stop .
Thought you should know i've tried my best to let go of you .
But i don't want to .

It's getting hard to be around you .
There's so much i can't say .
Do you want me to hide the feelings and look the other way ?

Just so you know .


Hello people . :)
Lols .
Nothing post-worthy today .

So i shall post about something that made me unable to sleep last night . Well , one of the things that made me unable to sleep . Shall not talk about the others . x.x .

Well , last night i was thinking about graduation . It is somehow bitter-sweet .
True , no more super strict rules , no more uniforms , no more o levels . Unfortunately , there would also be no more secondary school friends .

There would be no more Evelyn to walk to in the morning when i first arrive at school to talk to .
There would be no more Mdm Wong to nag at me to tie my hair up .
There would be no more Joel M coming to me and saying sarcastic stuff to me in the morning .

No more Kimmy to joke and laugh with . To sms in class and glare at each other for no good reason .
No more Vivian to bully me during maths and geography . To keep making me scream and shout at her . To keep PRESSING MY PHONE BUTTONS AND SCREEN .
No more extremely loud laughter coming from Rosiana and Yi Ting all of a sudden during lessons .
No more sarcastic remarks from Damien .
No more annoying but occasionally funny remarks from Joel M during lessons .
No more Ms Faizah to make the entire class laugh .
No more Mrs Fong to scold me in a very sarcastic and embarrassing way for talking during her lessons .
No more laughing at absolutely nothing with Kimmy , Evelyn and Xinyi during recess .
No more Elonah to make us laugh so much till our stomach hurt and tears start coming out .
No more walking pass 4B to stick my tongue out at Elonah while diao-ing Joel .
No more calling Hui Juan and Joel noob whenever i see them .
No more " eee " - ing at Xuan Jin .
No more strangling Yi Ting .
No more laughing at Shi Qi's innocence .
No more shouting random craps in the toilet .
No more night lessons .
No more going out after school .
No more bickering with Matin about whether Man Utd or Liverpool is better . ( Man Utd rocks . :) )
No more trying to switch seats without being caught by teachers .
No more quiet little Eugene to sit next to me .
No more Edwin to over exaggerate things and annoy the entire class .
No more shouting by our class in union when Mdm Wong is biased towards Won Jae , Alvon or Sun Woo .
No more shouting each others' names when Mdm Wong get us to stand up infront .
No more scheming and trying to "sabo" one another during Mdm Wong's lessons .
No more nagging and chocolates from Mdm Wong .
No more glaring at Ms Rahma with the rest of the class when she is mean to Mdm Wong .

No more 4E'09 .
No more Mdm Wong , Mrs Fong , Mdm Haliza , Ms Faizah , Ms Lenny and Mdm Rogayah .
No more classmates .

No more Kimmy , Evelyn , Xinyi , Elonah , Hui Juan , Joel Ang , Xuan Jin , Vivian , Yi Ting , Rosiana , Damien , Joel Mathias , Irdina , Sun Woo , Edwin , Eugene , Matin , , and many more .

Darn , i'm so gonna miss Bedok North . :(


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Date : Saturday, July 11, 2009
Time : 8:56 PM

I used to be love drunk , but now i'm hung over .


Yo all . :B
Today was a fun day . :D

In the morning , my dad had to wake me up like , 10 times before i finally relunctantly got my ass off the bed .
Went to taka with family .
Had korean bbq for lunch . Yummaye ! ( Hehe Xinyi . :3 )
:3
Waited patiently while my parents shopped at Calvin Klein . Was lazy to shop today . Weird . :O
But bought one shirt anyway . HAHA !

Dad dropped my mum at parkway and my bro and i at home .
Went up , changed , removed make up and took a spare phone for Elonah .
Rushed back into the car . Dad dropped me off at Eunos mrt station .
Waited over there for Hui Juan , Xuan Jin and Joel .
Took mrt over to tpy hub .
Instead of changing mrt at city hall , we changed at raffles .
Cause Hui Juan claimed that we would have seats .
But cause we sauntered into the train , we did not have any seat anyway . ._.
So we stood all the way to Toa Payoh .
Walked to tpy hub and met Elonah .
She was performing with my school's modern dance team .
Watched both of her perfomances . Was quite fun , but boring at the same time .
Kept laughing . LOL .
Joel so guai lan !
LOL .
And we also saw Mrs Kong , our school's Vice-Principal .
We were like , WTF ?
Then Joel was so scared . ._.
Xuan Jin ask him go guai lan Mrs Kong .
LOL .
At around 6:30 , Elonah was released .
We went up and sat down at one bridge to slack .
After that we walked over to mac .
On the way , Elonah changed , WHILE WE WERE WALKING .
PRO PRO . -claps-
LOL .
She said we should have totally took a video of that . LOL .
The 2 boys were carrying all of us girls' bags .
LOL . All carrying hand bags acting like idiots . :X
At mac , i actually didn't want to eat meal .
But one idiot made me order Big Mac cause he scared not nice . ._.
LOL .
Ate till so so full .
Elonah kept BURPING okay .
Till Xj and Joel were like , SHUT UP .
LOL .
We decided to take a cab home .
All 5 of us walked to the road side to try to flag a cab that would allow all 5 of us to ride . :X
One weird , mental man came to ask us for money .
So scary okay omg .
Joel finally gave him $1 and he left . ._.
Wtf la .
Even Xj agreed that he could have hit us or something .
He was like , abit retarded retarded like that . D:

And finally , after 5 unsuccessful attempts , a taxi driver finally agreed to let us all in . :X
First , we dropped Hui Juan , Xuan Jin and Joel off near school .
Elonah and i had a nice talk . :)
Then Elonah allighted at Simei to go to her friend's house .
Reached home at around 8:15 with my brother's dinner .
Hee .
Had fun today . Kept laughing and laughing .
Haha . I have really missed going out with you guys and laughing like mad peopleeee .
Especially cause of ELONAH. :X
Haha .

Wei ! Si bai chi .
Don't smoke hor !
Walao . Just now when i was in the cab , suddenly one idiot sms me say he want smoke . :(
I straight away called him and ask him not to smoke . ._.
Walao . Idiot ! Don't smoke la . You promise le hor !
And stop sitting under the rain . ._.



Okayyy , byebyebyebye . D:

I used to be love drunk , but now i'm sober .


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Date :
Time : 8:36 PM

You make me want you so much , it hurts .


Happy third month , dear ! :D
It has only been 3 months but it feels like forever .
We've been through quite a lot , especially this month ..
Things weren't easy , but we made it through . :)
Sometimes when i gaze at you , i'm still surprised that you're mine .
A few months ago , it seemed impossible .
I love you my dear . :D
<3 .


What i'm telling you now , hope you never forget .
I don't know what i'd do if i ever lost you .
And all the loneliness i would go through .
Boy , you know i've just began to realise what's important to me .
Maybe i should have tried to put your needs first but my priorities were messed up and i know you got hurt .
See , i never knew what you were going through .
Now i see what you're at .


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Date : Friday, July 10, 2009
Time : 10:01 PM

I can see in your eyes you're ready to break , don't look away .


Not a million fights could make me hate you .


Yo . Sorry sorry sorry !
Haven't been updating as i had simply no time to do so ! :X
This week has been a busy week , with the exception of Wednesday .
Hehe .

I'm not sure if i can exactly remember what happened . I'll try my best . :)

Tuesday ;
School was ... Erm . Okay i guess ?
Can't remember at all . ._.
After school Eve , Kimmy and i went over to parkway's Mac .
Ate and went to clb .
Met darling at St Pats .
Clb was funnayeeee . :D
LOL .
Took bus home with darling after clb .
He made us miss 2 14s in a row . :(
Tsk .
HAHA !

Wednesday ;
Ohmygod . I really can't rmb what happened today omg .
Oh yeah ! After school Joel taught me how to fold straw hearts ! :D
Thanks noob ! :3
He is sibei sibei guailan k .
Guai lan until Xinyi almost kicked him like , 5 times .
LOLOL .
He ah . Take one hour to learn . Xinyi and i only took like , 5 minutes !
HEHE .
Walked to Xinyi's house bus stop and went home from there . :)

Thursday ;
School was boring . Damien was an asshole .
He gave me headache later on in the day by using his knuckles to rub my temples really hard for no good reason .
Wtf .
Borrowed Joel's nokia charger during English remedial .
Charged for only like , 20 mins .
Macham never charge . ._.
My remedial ended earlier than Xinyi's .
Walked over to Joel's house's void deck to pass him back his charger .
That idiot was like , wait ah i dry my hair first .
Make me wait for him . So boring .
Stupid ! Arbo next time don't give you back charger . xD .
After he collected his charger , Xinyi appeared . o.o .
Then he say i waste his time dry his hair . ^@!%$#
Anyway , cabbed to TM with Xinyi . Met darling .
Helped my mum buy a couple of stuff . Walked over to T1 .
Bought bubble tea . Cabbed to Xinyi's house .
Xinyi went home while darling sent me to tuition .
He gave a cute bear for our 3rd month ! :D
So so so so cute okay ! :X
Thanks dear . I love youuuu . :D
Spent 2 -3 hours doing my bio paper as i had to flip through my text book copying paragraphs continuously .
I hate biology .
-.- .
I also did 2 essay questions which sorta broke my hand from the extreme writing . ._.
When i reached school the next day , i found out that i actually did not have to do that . WTF .

Friday ;
Some idiot told me he was in concourse this morning . Then he was actually in his class when i walked pass his class . ._.
And his dream so funny ! :3
LOL !
Ferry sink la . :X .
School was blah .
Evelyn , Xinyi and i went to Ikea after school to buy stuff . :D
Ate the meatballs . So nice . :3
Hee .
The 3 of us kept running . Hehe .
So fun luhhh .
I miss times like these ! Reminds me of care-free sec3 life . D:
Okay enough of reminiscing about the past . :(
Went back to Evelyn's house .
Had a lot of fun baking cookies there ! :D
Don't know which idiot keep saying my cookies will CHAO TA .
I will throw at you if chao ta . :B
Baking with friends is like , seriously fun ! :3
We were also talking about how living together after poly while studying ( Xinyi and Evelyn ) , waiting for our guy to get out of NS ( me ) or whatever ( No idea what Kimmy will be doing ) will be super chaotic .
LOL .
Hopefully that day will come , eh ? ;3
Xinyi will be the coooooooook ! :B
-drools-
We drank come of Evelyn's parents' wine while baking cookies . :3
Slacked a lot .
I felt kinda nauseous for quite sometime .
And sitting on the rocking chair did not help me one bit . ._.

Xaveir came over at around 6 .
He is such a bully .
EVELYN TONG HUI LING , CONTROL YOUR BOYF !
Stupid BULLY !
LOL .
DO NOT TICKLE ME .
TICKLE EVELYN ! =D
And tsk tsk . The worse kind of PDA is when you see your best friend doing it .
-hints-
LOL !
Met darling to give him the cookies .
Hehe . It was my 3rd month present for him . :)
I've never ever baked for anyone before okay .
You better be happy ! :X
Hehe !
Don't blame me ah if you get diarrhea . :X

Hee . Done and done .

Piang eh . Mickey seriously one xiao qi gui . People call him bo liao , he jio sua sua byebye .
._.
Then still say learn from me . Tmd . D:

P.S . Sorry for the lousy english in this post .
Felt like being really singlish-y today . =D


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Date : Monday, July 6, 2009
Time : 9:38 PM

Just so you know , i tried my best to let go of you .


Happy birthday Damien Ang Chuin Yeong .
LOL . ( At least i think its spelt that way . :3 . Haven't spelt your chinese name for about , 7 months ?! )

Hah . Happy 16th birthday .
Don't do anything stupid . Oh wait . Thats something you do everyday .
I bet today is no exception .
Example one : Science centre . Trying to scare innocent people .
Tsk tsk .

Anyway , blahblahblah .
Enjoy the last few hours of your 16th birthday . ;3 .
Sorry , no present for you yet .
Haven't bought one .
Anyway last year's present was expensive enough .
HAH !
:D



Update for today :
Woke up late again . :3
Rushed like hell and managed to put on contacts , brush teeth , shower and change in 15 mins .
Record timing okay ! Xinyi should be thankful .
Tsk . D:
Xinyi came over to my house .
My dad drove us to Bedok inter .
Got onto bus 66 .
After about 1 hour we were still stuck in the bus and no where near our destination , which is the science centre , fyi .
We got off and Bukit Timah , took a cab all the way to the science centre . Costed us 12 bucks . ._.
Wtf .
Met Kimmy and her sister , Madeline .
Had lunch and mac and walked over to buy tickets and enter the exhibition on Leonardo Da Vinci .
Met Yiting , Damien , Jeslyn , Rosiana and some other people there . Can't remember who . Hah .
Spent about 1 hour plus at the exhibition . Walked back to the science centre . Walked around somemore .
Went to mac again . Ate again . LOL . Pig-ish us . :3 .
Xinyi and i took cab all the way to darling's house , which costed $27 , mind you .
Darling paid . Sorry for wasting your money ... :/
Xinyi took bus home and darling dropped me off . :)
Finally met him after like , 6 days ? D: .

Anyway , came home . Watched Keith .
Its a really touching movie . You should watch it .
It stars Jesse McCartney by the way !
:D !

Okay bye people .


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Date : Sunday, July 5, 2009
Time : 10:41 PM

You should have known that word 'bout what you did with her would get back to me ;


You can see that i've been cring .
Baby , you know all the right things to say .
But do you honestly expect me to believe we could ever be the same ?
You say that the past is the past . You need one chance .
It was a moment of weakness and you said yes .
I can't resist . Before you go tell me this .
Was it worth it ? Was she worth this ?


Hi .
I am bored .
I am listening to Taylor Swift's debute album again .
Her lyrics are really meaningful .
(Refer to the one on top . :) )
Byebye .


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Date :
Time : 8:22 PM

I don't know what i'm waiting for .


Hey all . :D
So sorry for not updating . Have been really lazy . :(

Nothing much actually . Just that i bought a couple of shirts yesterday at Paragon .
Forgot the name of the shop .
Blahblah . One of those really expensive yet not known shops .
Boring . I'd rather have proper designer clothes . :3

Was at Zara actually , but didn't bother trying on anything .
The queue to get into the dressing room was like .. whoa .
They were having 30% sale . Blahs .

Actually , there is nothing else for me to blog about . o.o .
Hah .


So many nights spent with you in the beginning .
It takes awhile getting used to having nothing .
I would give all i have just to be what you need until the end .
I'd give myself to be me , and to hold you close again .


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Date : Friday, July 3, 2009
Time : 7:28 PM

It's not fair to blame me for all her crimes ;


Give me a chance , let me inside .
Just for a minute . Baby , just for a moment .

Yo . :D
Finally finally FINALLY friday ! :D
So anyway , UPDATE .

Thursday ;
Had to go back to school . :(
People kept asking me why i didn't come to school and i was like , cause our vp don't let !
LOL .
So anyway , pure physics & chem students are separated from the conbined science pupils . :D
So 3/4 of my class moves over to 4D while pure phy & chem students from 4D and 4C come over to my class .
Teehee .
Time passed really fast during physics and chemistry , which were the first 2 periods .
Well , physics is always fun . Miss Faizah is a wonderful teacher . :)
Thank goodness we still had her as our teacher ! :D
Thank goodness i didn't drop to combined science . ._.
You know , there are only FOUR girls left taking triple science in sec4 .
I mustmustmust do well . If not it will be so damn embarrassing .
How the hell am i supposed to score for all THREE sciences ?!
Help . :(
Oh , anyway , Mdm Haliza went off to take MC and thus didn't come in to teach us .
And because i wasn't in school the previous day , i didn't have any work to do .
It was super slacky for me .
I went behind to talk to Vivian , Damien and Yi Ting .
Laughed like hell , i swear .
School can be fun during times like these . ;)
Vivian and Yi Ting kept laughing at mine and Damien's lousy chinese .
Pfft ! :(
And Damien and i were laughing at each other actually . LOL .
The rest of the school day was rather mundane .
Except for the fact that the school's catered food miraculously became better , at least thats what my classmates said .
Hee . Lucky for me . :) I wasn't in school to taste the horrible food . :X

After school , Evelyn and i took bus 5 with Damien to Simei .
Damien was being such an asshole in the bus okay .
Oh wait , HE WAS ALWAYS ONE . :D ! ( Yes Damien , read this and read it again . :D )
Pfft . ._.
Tortured him till Evelyn and i got off the bus . :)
We went to 18 chefs to eat .
Its is a really really nice eating spot .
Hee . Nice food !
Xavier came after about an hour .
He's sucha bully , i swear . :(
Pfft . And no Xavier , NO ONE MISSES YOU . :)
Poor Evelyn , she had to eat really slowly as she just tightened her braces the day before . :X

Left 18 chefs at around 4 .
Rushed home , rushed to the dentist to get MY braces tightened and then went for tuition . :D
Came home , attempted to do my a maths homework and then went to sleep . :B .

Friday ;
Mdm Haliza didn't come again . Had to do Maris Stella Secondary School's paper though .
40 MCQ questions . Didn't have time to finish them all .
When the bell rang , all of us scrambled around the class , trying to copy answers . LOL .
The rest of the day was again , rather mundane .

After school , Vivian and i went to look for Mr Aliff to get the chem paper which we forgotten to take from Joel .
Mr Aliff chased us out of the concourse , and we got scolded by Ms Faizah for going back up to the class .
Ehmagawd okay , seriously .
Our school is SO paranoid .
._.
Its not as if we have H1N1 right ?
._.

Met Kimmy and Xinyi .
Walked over to Kimmy's house and then took bus 5 to Simei , again .
Went to 18 chefs , again .
LOL . I told ya they have nice food !
After the meal , Kimmy and Xinyi both wanted to go back another time .
Hehe !
Thanks you Xavier for introducing this restaurant to Evelyn who introduced it to me . :3
Hehe .

Okay anyway , we took bus 5 to far east .
We were like discussing about alcoholic contents .
LOL . Kimmy said that there is one drink with 96% alcohol or something .
We were like , wtf , one shot will alr get someone totally wasted .
LOL .
Madness man .

Kimmy went to pierce her navel .
Xinyi and i were like scared FOR her , not WITH her okay .
Kimmy is sucha brave girl . :(
LOL .
But she still claims its painful though . The piercing i mean .
Ugh .

Xinyi pierced second hole on both ears .
She was SO CUTE okay . She was so so so scared and let out a yelp after piercing her second ear .
Kimmy and i started laughing like hell .
LOLLLL !
I didn't pierce as i didn't have enough money .
Will pierce with Kimmy after english O Level oral examination . Kimmy is not piercing her ear though . ._. She alr has 4 holes on the ear lobes and a tragus piercing . Piercing freak ! :X
I have to look like a totally innocent student with only ONE ear hole per ear for the exam .
Hehe . :3
I wanna get platinum blonde extensions ! ( aka Lady Gaga's hair colour . :3 )
As in like Kimmy's pink extensions . Just 3 strands . I don't wanna put it at the back though . Wanna put it at the side .
Thus and therefore , i can't put it now . :(
School sucks . Big time . :(
&& i read some where that platinum blonde extensions for $5 per strand , unlike normal extensions which are $1 per strand .
._.

Blahs !
Anyway , slept on the one hour bus ride home . :)

Okay , done updating . Imma watch Gossip Girl season 1 again ! :D
Blair , Chuck , Nate , Serena , Dan , Vanessa & Jenny = Love ! :D
Gossip Girl is the best show ever .
Hee . Especially since its starring Chace Crawford ! ;)

Byebyebye . LOL .


Late night , bring back the heat .
I don't even know what i'm waiting for .
It takes all i have just to move along .


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Date : Wednesday, July 1, 2009
Time : 9:26 PM

What goes around comes around in the end ;


Aw . :(
I have to go to school tmr .
Oh well , at least i had 3 extra days of holidays ! :)
Teehee .
Darling had 2 . :X
He's going to school tmr too ! :O

Okay , well , nothing much happened today .
Thus , i shall not elaborate . :D

Goodnight world . :)

Guess you never know just what you've got till you finally realise it could be gone .
I know that i've been taking you for granted for the longest time .
All you wanted was someone who really cares and i didn't even notice you were there .
I promise that i'll never ever make that same mistake , not twice .
Guess I never really thought about it before , i was thinking of myself and nothing more .
Didn't even wanna try to find out how you really feel .
Now I see that i'm the lucky one , it's true .
And what we've got , you know i never want to lose .
I was tripping in a fantasy and missing what was real .


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