yo people.
feeling better now.
i guess i will get over it someday.
probably in a months time bah?
at least i have friends. (:
and at least damien is not pissed at me anymore.
AND I DONT CARE DAMIEN ANG, I WANT THAT MEDAL.
i have proof okays.

thanks you, xinyi, evelyn, jane, rosiana, zhixiong, damien, ruixia and others for being there for me. :D

and thanks you evelyn for th blog post . :D
i know i'm not alone, cause i have youu. :D
and i know its not my fault, but it still hurts.
and of course i will keep holding on.

i guess damien is right.
i'm gonna post one of his smses.
if you dont know what he is talking about, or what i'm posting about. then, you aren't meant to know. so don't ask me in school or anything. ._.

" 1st what i think people deserve doesnt matter. 2nd its up 2 u. u can sit n wait hoping things will go back n drown in your hopes like me, or u can move on, which is easier does not matter. it is the seeds u sow that does "

thats exactly what he said, i just added a few punctuation. i guess what he said is true.
of course moving on isn't easy. sitting here waiting isn't easy either.
i guess i'll be waiting.. for now.
cause i don't wanna move on, not now, not yet.

all i know is that i have wonderful friends to help me get through this.
you guys are the best.
i dont know what i'd do if not for you guys. :D
and rosi, i'm still not letting you delete my emo songs.
i love my songs okay. D:
MAI TOUCH.
and dont ask god take away my tears.
later eye pain, bodoh. D:
take away my memory.
make me forget everything.
:D
and if i forget everything, i wont cry anymore, i swear.
cause i wont feel the pain of missing someone so badly.
i'm not gonna say i hate love, cause i'm still in love.
i just hate promises, and trusting in promises.
cause most promises end up getting broken anyway.
no matter how sincere the person sounds at that time.
i guess i just have to learn that the hard way.
and it isn't pretty.
so take my word for it guys, dont trust in promises.
promises are just words, that now a days, people say without a second thought.
without thinking of the other party.



Today is the day
The worst day of my life
You're so content it hurts me
I don't know why
The cost of misery
Is at an all time high
I keep it hidden
Close to the surface in sight

I'm learning to fall
I can't hardly breathe
When I'm going down don't worry about me
Don't try this at home
You said you don't see
I don't want to know that you know, it should have been me

Could you be with him?
Or was it just a lie?
He doesn't catch you like I do
And you don't know why
You change your clothes and your hair
But I can't change your mind
Oh, I'm uninvited
So unrequited now

I'm learning to fall
I can't hardly breathe
When I'm going down don't worry about me
Don't try this at home
You said you don't see
I don't want to know that you know, it should have been me

Words screaming in my head
Why did you leave?
And I can't stop dreaming
Watching you and him
When it should have been
It should have been me

Today is the day
The worst day of my life

I'm learning to fall
I can't hardly breathe
When I'm going down don't worry about me
Don't try this at home
You said you don't see
I don't want to know that you know, it should have been me

Whoa (I'm learning to fall, I can't hardly breathe)
(I don't want to know that you know, it should have been me)
Tell me that you know, it should have been me)
Whoa (Don't try this at home, You said you don't see)
I don't want to know that you know, it should've been me
Whoa (I'm learning to fall, I can't hardly breathe)
(I don't want to know that you know, it should have been me)
Tell me that you know, it should have been me
Whoa (Don't try this at home, You said you don't see)
I don't want to know that you know, it should've been me


this song has nice lyrics. :D
i'm not telling you guys th title.
rosi may delete it off my phone. :X