You took my hand , you showed me how . You promised me you'd be around . I took your words and i believed in everything you said to me .

hello pathetic little world . ):
i'm so so so late !
i told them i will be in maple at FOUR .
now is EIGHT THIRTY ! ;x
gaahs !
and jun asked me to help him .
i think be hb mule again . -.-
dont know .
needa ask him . =/

and ISAAC CHAM DI , is an ass . D:<
ass ASS ASS !
tell me sms then bo reply . -'- ! D:

aaaaaaaand , sw is coming back to sg on th 3rd of dec !
not 19th !
haha! :D

but no diff actually .
his is NIGHT flight .
mine is morning flight .
cant talk to him anyway . 0.-
blehs !
and he'll prolly be sleeping when i'm in th airport . ;x

bleh .
just now was on audi .
with ben , not bff different ben , si wugui ben ! :D
that HORNY BASTARD !
zomgzxzxz .
seriously damn horny okay !
girls , stay AWAY from him . -.0
heh heh . :D !
but seriously , he is super duper uber horny .
but i know lotsa friggin ' horny ppl .
used to it alr .
o.-

okays , now i have to put up th laundry and then go maple !
hahs . ;x
bye !


I trusted your forever . Why did you have to go and change your mind ?

a) Name five things about yourself.
i dont know .


b)Name five best friends you have.
1)Xinyi
2)Kimmy
3)Evelyn
4)Rosiana
5)Shihyao



c) Will you ever be in a relationship with 3?
she has a boyf . ;x


d) What is 1 like?
MY MUMMY !!!!! ;x !


e) Will 3 ever be in a relationship with 5?
LOL . EVELYN AND SHIHYAO ? HAHAHAHA. they dont know each other . O.o



f) Where did you first meet 2?
SCHOOOOL !



g) Will you ever marry 4?
She's a girl . =__=



h) Will 1 ever be your best best friend?
SHE ALR IS ! :D



ZOMGZOMGZOMG.
DONE.
YAYY !


bye ! time to maple !


imyimyimyimy . ♥

1. Besides your mouth, where is your favourite spot to get kissed?
erm , dont know ? cheek ? o.o

2. Were you happy when you woke up today?
nope.

3. How about now?
still nope.

4. Do you eat candy on a daily basis?
nopes.

5. Who was the last person you ate with?
mummy and brother.

6. Are you currently taking a science class in school?
yeah . o.o !

7. Kiss on the first date?
i only want kiss one person . -'-

8. Would you rather have chicken or steak?
chicken .

9. What were you doing at 10 am?
sleeping on my sofa .

10. Are you different now than you were six months ago?
very very very different . wow . 6 months ago . april . that . very . month . i . fell . for . him . =="

11. What was the last beverage you spilled on yourself?
water . o.o

12. How old will you be in 10 months?
still 15 . ;x

13. Who was the last person to text you?
xinyi . o.o

14. What month is your birthday in?
october .

15. Can you live a day without TV?
duh . a week without it also can . a month also can .

16. When was the last time you saw your dad?
this morning . o.o

17. How many pets do you have?
dun have .

18. Are you a female or a male?
both. female lah . -__-

19. Do you prefer shoes, socks, or bare feet?
depends on where i am .

20. What are you doing for your next birthday?
study for o lvl -'- !

21. What are you thinking about right now?
desmond. D:

22. Any plans for next weekend?
erm , next weekend i'll be in canada ..

23. Do you smile a lot?
nopes .

24. When was the last time you cried and why?
last night . cos i miss him . cannot ah .

25. Have you ever had a life-threatening injury?
nahs .

26. What do you want to be when you grow up?
dno.

27. Do you like flying or driving?
both.

28. Do you know how to drive a stick shift?
i cant even drive a normal car. =__=

29. What is your favourite thing to spend money on?
maple ppc !

30. Do you wear any jewelry daily?
earrings .

31. Who got you the jewelry you are currently wearing?
rosi , xinyi , blablabla for my bday pressie .

32. Who is the funniest person you know?
jun . LOL .

33. How often do you remember your dreams?
always.

34. What is your ringtone?
Leavin' by Jesse McCartney.

35. Pass this quiz to 3 people
Evelyn
Kimmy
Rosi

ONE MORE !

1.The person who tagged you is?
SHIHYAO . DAMN YOUU .

2.Your relationship with him/her?
HE IS MY MONKEY . ;D

3.Your 5 impression of them.
1) monkey
2) loves monkeys
3) thinks monkeys are cute
4) BHB !
5) love monkeys a little too much.

4.The most memorable thing he/she had done for you.
erms , calmed be down that day , erm , 24th nov . (:

5.The most memorable thing they had said to u?
duno ? o.o

6.If they become ur lover,you will?
..?

7.If she become ur lover,thing she has to improve on will be?
not being a monkey. hahahaha. and he will never become my lover . tyvm . =="

8.If they become ur enemy,u will?
no way . ):

9.If they become ur enermy,you will?
pathetic quiz.

10.You want to tell for them now is?
die. at. mongs. jk . ;x

11.Your overall impression of them is?
MONKEHHH . ;D

12.How do u think ppl around you will feel around you?
annoyed. (:

13.The characters you love of urself are?
dont have any .

14.On the contrary,the characters u hate yourself are?
everything .

15.The most ideal person you want to be is?
whoever desmond loves now . :P

16.For ppl that care and like u,say something to them.
ILOVEYOU. ♥

17.Pass this quiz to 10 person that u wished to know how they feel about you.
desmond
desmond
desmond
desmond
What ? TT . i wanna know how he feels right . -'- sue me .
evelyn
rosi
kimmy
jeremy
leo
xinyi

2 MORE TO GO !

I HAVE 4 QUIZZES TO DO THANKS TO SHIHYAO . - mumble bad words -

QUIZ NUMBER ONE !

-glares at shihyao -

A) People who have been tagged must write their answers on their blogs.
B) Tag 7 people to do this quiz & those who are tagged cannot refuse.These people must state who they were tagged by & cannot tag the person whom they were tagged by.
C) Continue this game by sending it to other people.

7 ppl i tag:
Evelyn
Jeremy
Kimmy
Rosi
Jonathan
Jane
Leo


01. What have you been doing recently?
Mapling and missing someone .

02. Do you ever turn your cell phone off?
No. but it turns off by itself for no freaking reason . so yeah . -'- !

03. What happened at 10.00am today?
erm , was sleeping on my sofa .

04. When did you last cry?
last night .

05. Believe in fate/destiny?
yes . ):

06. What do you want in your life right now?
desmondddddddddd . D: bleh .

08. What's your favourite thing to have on your bed?
my handphone . ;x

09. What bottom are you wearing now?
jeans shorts . o.o

10. What's the nicest text in your inbox say?
... not typing it here .

11. Do you tend to make a relationship complicated?
maybe , i think so . i dont know . dont ask me . ask.. him . =__=

12. Are you wearing anything you borrowed from someone?
i didnt borrow this shirt , he gave it to me . :P

13. What was the last movie you caught?
erms , hsm3 .

14. What are you proud of?
nothing . i hate my life and myself. :D

15. What does the oldest text message in your inbox say?
Sorry girl. Oh yeah. Leaving for thailand tomorrow. Lol. From wednesday to next monday.
Sent by : Andrew , 28 oct 2008.
O.o

16. What was the last song you sang out loud?
I Miss You by Miley Cyrus. x3

17.Do you have any nicknames?
salad ? thanks uh tiew xinyi mummy . ==" and sunburnt monkey , which is meant for shihyao . -'-

18. What does your last received text message say?
I bet you did it as a kid too . From MUMMMAYEE XINYI.

19. What time did you go to bed last night?
2-3 plus. o.o was smsing yiting , damien and bryan di .

20. Are you currently happy?
the last time i was happy was 4th oct 2008. =________=

21. Who gives you best advice?
Xinyi & SW . :D ♥

22. Do you eat whipped cream straight from the can?
nope.


23. Who did you talk on phone last night?
no one .


24. Is anything bugging you right now?
yes. my heart .


25. What/who was the last thing/person to make you laugh?
erm , dont know . =__=

26. Do you wear toe socks?
nope .

27. Who was the last person you missed a call from?
isaac di . O.o omgomgomg ISAAC CHAAAM . COME BACK FROM CAMP FASTER LEH . T_________T imy la . so sian . no one to talk to . ):

28. Have you ever had your heartbroken?
as you can see from my previous posts , the answer is kinda obvious . Y-E-S .

29. What annoys you most in a person?
attitude .

30. Do you have a crush on anyone?
i love someone . ):

31. Have you ever done cocaine?
nopes . O:

32. What is the colour of your room?
white .

33. Would you kill someone you hate for a billion dollars?
nopes . o.o i'd pay someone else 10 mil to kill for me .

34. Do you believe in the saying of :"talk is cheap?"
yes . absolutely . definately . YESSS . =________=

35. Who was the last person to lie in your bed?
my husband . lols . -__- obviously me right .

36. Who was the last person to hug you?
o.o erm . long time ago . dun wanna say . dont have to anw . you all should know . O.o

37. Did anyone see the last person you kissed?
erm , maybe ?

38. Do you have a life?
i wish i dont . =__=

39. Have you ever think someone died, when they really didnt die?
nope . o.o

40. What is the reason behind your profile song?
i miss him , i guess .

41. Who was the last person you saw in your dream?
ermerm , let me think . shhh . i think is desmond and my own imaginary version of jun ( since idk how he looks like ) .

42. Last time you smiled?
idk .

43. Have you changed this year?
alot . ALOT .

44. What are you listening right now?
David Archuleta's voice .

45. Are you talking to someone when you doing this?
erm , nopes . just thinking of someone .

46. Do you walk with your eyes open or closed?
open =__=

47. Is there a quote you live by?
actions speak louder than words . ._.

48. Do you want someone you cannot have?
yesyesyesyes . desmondchan . ):

49. Have you ever played an instrument?
piano and guitar .

50. What was the worst idea you've had in this week?
thinking that i actually had a chance . (:


first quiz done . question 50 is making me emo . D:

It never crossed my mind at all. Its what I tell myself. What we had, has come and gone . You're better off with someone else. Its for the best, I know it is. But I see you sometimes, I try to hide what I feel inside. And I turn around, you're with her now. I just can't figure it out . Tell me why you're so hard to forget . Don't remind me I'm not over it . Tell me why I can't seem to face the truth . I'm just a little too not over you .

Memories are supposed to fade away , whats wrong with my heart ?

i.. i just wished i was a better girlfriend when i had the chance . ):


i'm just a little too not over youuu . DD:

Now only heaven knows
How I really feel inside
I try my best not to let it show
But late at night, In my room
I think of you and start to cry

You know that I'm emotional
But still you break my heart
Let's make no mistakes

We both know that
You're the one responsible
For hurting me this way
Now my tears fall like rain

It's a quater after twelve
I know I should be in bed
Boy you got me feeling sorry for myself
I must confess, this loneliness is killing me
I'm so upset

How could you break all your promises
Like you told me, You'd be there to hold me
I can not believe the way I fell for it
I was a fool to buy all the lies you sold me


D:

It’s not a feeling like when you touch a flame .
No, it’s not like when someone calls you a bad name .
It’s not like the hurt when you slip and fall down .
No, it’s not like any of these, what I’ve found is ,

Your love hurts like a paper cut, so sweet never even feel the slice .
You’re so deep .
It seems so painless, but only at first .
Cause like a paper cut the pain grows worse.

do you know how pathetic it is when the only person that can get you to stop crying is the person that made you cry in the first place ?

this feeling sucks . idk why you always have to keep doing this . fuck love .

FUUUUUUUUCK LOVE .
-'-
i wish there is no such thing as love .
jibai. ):
heartpain la .
zzzz .
bb .

And that last kiss i'll cherish until we meet again , and time makes it harder . I wish i could remember , but i keep your memory , you missing me in my sleep. My darling , who knew .

Because you said forever .


Who Knew . ♥


now imma hb mule . ._.
using jun's spearman .
boring la .
since 11 + i've been in th skele map .
hb-ing .
=___=
bored.
someone come maple to talk to me pls ? D:

this friday going to suntec with eve, xinyi and kimmy.
gonna watch , angus, thongs and perfect snogging & Wild Child .
:D
wahahahas.
finally going out .
i have been so lonelyyyyyyyyyy . D:


and and and .
ty jonathan erzi .
last night when i smsed him he straight call me and confort me in ONE second .
haha .
<33 . :D
erzi ily . (:

later update bahs .

IMYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY. D;

7 weeks........... ):

ZOMG THAT MEGA . sibei stupid . AND FUNNY . :D TQ MELANY ANG NUER . <3

ZOMGS
maple patch keep delaying .
sianed. ):
since 3:30 ! till now !
now extend till 6. ._. niceee .

SIBEI sian .
i want go out .
but then , rain .
-'- !
walao ehs . TT.

was supposed to go parkway .
D:
and i almost went to damien's hse .
._. ps2 . :3
but i stayed at home .
GAHS . D:


aaand ,
firstly .

Ben : F> ppl for phone sex from midnight till 6am

secondly ,

monkeys are ugly . U-G-L-Y .
;D

lastly ,

FUUCK YOU ASIASOFT ! ):


LMAO. :X
guess whats my pm in msn now ?
Yeah babe. Extend again . Song bo . -'-
ROFL .
cause ben said , Yeah babe. Extended AGAIN.
then i jus put that . :3
and ben is despo . :D
I HOPE YOU'RE READING THIS.
rofls . :D


anw , time to disiao ppl on msn .
byes . :3
imy. O;

whatthefuckzxzxzxzzxz

sian lahs . ._.
stupid parents made me wake up at fucking 10am .
jibai .
i slept at 4am sia .
-.-
let me sleep also will die isit .
fucked up .
sibei tired .
zz .
somemore maple got th fucking patch .
walao eh .
sian bodoh .

boo.
i'm back.
smsing jun.
th rest pangseh .
._.
bye.
istillmissyou. D:

Fuck .
cannot sleep .
smsing jun, sw and resa . =_=
AAAAAAAAAAAGH.
imy. ):
bye.

Notice : i will not be replying anymore tags from this person , Dog .

To dog : you can tag all you want . i'm not gonna reply anymore .

sibei sian . never ending de lo . i lazy alr . O: i do not talk to dogs , or idiots that call themselves dogs . -.- i nvr call you dog , you come my blog call yourself dog at my tagbox? walao eh . -.- waste my time . o.o i dont even know who you are . -.- whatthehells . O: you can spam . i will just ignore . k . bye . (:

gahh .
life is so complicated . ._.

last night was smsing clarence till i started to cry .
thanks daddy for th advice. O:

i feel like i have been lying to myself . for about 2 weeks.
maybe i jus didnt realise it .

while smsing clarence i was listening to The Day You Went Away by M2M .


Well I wonder could it be ,
When I was dreaming about you baby ,
You were dreaming of me .
Call me crazy, call me blind to still be suffering is stupid after all of this time .

Did I lose my love to someone better ?
And does she love you like I do
I do, you know I really really do

Well hey
So much I need to say
Been lonely since the day
The day you went away
So sad but true
For me there's only you
Been crying since the day
The day you went away

I remember date and time
September 22nd october 5th, Sunday,
twenty five after nine thirty one after one .
In the doorway with your case ,
No longer shouting at each other ,
There were tears on our faces .
And we were letting go of something special ,
Something we'll never have again .
I know, I guess I really really know .


yes , i changed th lyrics abit .
dont like , fk off . -.-
my blog .
my problem .
ty . :D


sian .
sibei sian .
GAHH . D:

Cause if you jump, i will jump too . We will fall together from the building's ledge , never looking back at what we've done. We'll say it was love. Cause i would die for you on skyway avenue. (:

kays , back to maple . :D

boo ! :D
back from th radio academy thing againnn . :D
today we recorded a 15 min radio show . o.o
messed up one of my lines.
omfg so embarrassing okay .
i had to like say " OMGG, JESSE MCCARTNEY IS SOOOOO HOT "
zz -.-
i wanted to LAUGH okay .
HAHA !



OMG LOOK AT WONJAE'S FACE . LOL . ;D

OH YEA .
i forgot .
Grats Xinyi and Clarence stead !
haha .
they actually stead ytd .
:x
evelyn and zhixiong stead on th 101008
xinyi and clarence stead on th 111108
who will stead on 121208 ?
hahas. :D
kimmy ? :3
then rosi 010109 .
HAHA . :D
okok , bye guys .

HELLO IDIOTS :D
cough , i mean people . :D
heh heh .
i know , i haven't updated in a long time.
sorry lahs .
busy la dey . :X
hahas.
now free cause now preparing for th radio recording tmr with rosi and minyu .
we dont know how to do th preparation sia. D:
HARD BODOH . -.-
gahhhs . ):

now sw is my maple acc.
:D
training for me.
wahahas .
im too lazy to train . :3
hahas .
and i was playing his acc .
SO FUN SIA .
lvl 110 priest okay .
mai play play ! :D
hahas . :D

today went to the campus radio academy thing . sibei funny, when going back . aaron was trying to jio this girl. then on th way back everyone in th van was like talking about relationships la. damn funny. laugh like fuck. even tcher contribute okay . everyone was like helping aaron. HAHA ! :D



_______________________

gahs .
was emo last night .
cause was listening to song .
then i was smsing sw .
then th song Like A Knife by Secondhand Serenade started playing .
then i listen la .
then started to cry again .
i nvr cry for 2 weeks liao .
zz .
shit . -.-
spoil my record la .
stupid secondhand serenade song .


Cause today, you walked out of my life
Cause today, your words felt like a knife
I'm not living this life.

Goodbyes are meant for lonely people standing in the rain
And no matter where I go it's always pouring all the same.
These streets are filled with memories
Both perfect and in pain
And all I wanna do is love you
But I'm the only one to blame.

D:<

dammit . TT .

anw , i have lotsa new songs now .
sw sent me about 15 songs ytd.
LOLS . :D
wahahahahahas .
i haven even listen finish yet .

Love Story <3

:D

okays , time to go concentrate on th planning !
bye guys ! :D

MAPLESEA BOOTES GOT ONE DOG .
ytd call me dog ?
then afk ?
then back liao wash plate ?
act nia .
your darling pm2 and pm3 zao liao then you straight afk .
pm3 back you back .
kns ?
then scold dunno how scold uh ?
kp .
i want oi ni huan lo ?
say want settle rl , then go bukit timah .
you want settle de la hor .
you lai tanah merah la .
you bring your whole family lai la .
mother father all bring la .
kp . -'-
then at th end kpkb say what you nerd , then scared.
smlj nerd .
you nerd my daiji ?
knn .
then at th end ,
say settle liao .
say jane mai say you , you mai say her .
then i off , you mega sia .
humji ?
must wait i off then mega ?
must wait i off then start scold jane again ?
kns .
keep say what " diam la i not talking to you "
i talking to you rights ? pajiao ?
dog la .
kns .
and your pm2 and pm3 now hum liao , cause ppl want tio them rl .
kns la .
HUMJI KIA .
WAIT TILL I OFF THEN SCOLD .
WANT SCOLD , SCOLD INFRONT OF ME LAHS . -'-
i got proof you still scold and mega la hor .
you want settle rl sibo ?
lai la .
i not scared la hor . -.-
mai waste my time .
guailan in maple .
" i so scared i so scared "
TELL YOUR MOTHER LAH .
knn .
you think i care ah ?

kns .
everyone say settle alr you still want guailan my chiobu ?
kp la hor .
-'-
cbk .
i go maple liao .
sibei no mood .
kns .

GAH !
now downloading audi manual patch !
sian !
gold is gonna kill me !
:X
cause i take so long . -.-
sorry sorry !
k , download liao !
updates later ! :D
ily ! :P

MAPLE SS ! :D

jun and his godly items ! still say noob . whatthefxcks? D;

YAY ,
dog left th guild alr . :D
fucking bitch ! :D
yes, you're a bitch ! :3
at first , th guild got one bitch before i enter ,
jun kicked her , then added me .
then ytd i saw another bitch in th guild !
then she gone alr .
YAYS .
Zest . :D
ally so kp .
noisy like fuck . -.-
stupid green chat ! -.-

zomg , maple is so funn . :D
all frens back alr .
<3 Zest ! :D
and i love my guild !
sibei fun !
BUT DAMN HORNY ALSO OK .
ask chiobu . :X
LMAOS .
th guild notice !
keep tio change by jun and john !
hahas !
damn FUNNY but horny .
LOL .
haha ! :D




the possibility that you would ever feel the same away about me is just too much. why do i keep running from the truth, all I ever think about is you, you've got me hypnotized, so mesmerized, and i just got to know, do you ever think, when you’re all alone, all that we can be, where this thing can go ?
am I crazy or falling in love ?
is it real or just another crush ?
are you holding back, like the way I do ?
cause I’m trying to walk away , but i know this crush ain't going away.
has it ever crossed your mind , that when we're hanging, spending time boy , we've just friends, is there more ?
see it’s a chance we’ve gotta take, cause i believe that we can make this into something that will last forever.


i love Crush by David Archuleta . <3

LALAL . :D



分手都已过了那么久
现在也有自已的生活
你身边有个人牵着你的手
我们就像是朋友偶尔联络

心情不好你会来跟我说
我安慰你不难过
等你恢复笑容
总是笑着道谢转身走
变成朋友的你和我并不轻松

I could see I love you
It hurts me deep in my heart
你还在我心上某一个地方
看着你为了他
失魂落魄不说一句话
爱的重量不在我身上

I could see I love you
It hurts me deep in my heart
我不能像你这样说分了就忘
我这样是坚强
还是忘了爱的勉强
过去不想全部隐藏
就试着遗忘

说
对我诉说你跟他满脸笑容
我微笑地聆听接受
过去的你和我
是否也爱得那么冲动
痛哭好久开心也有让人感动

I could see I love you
It hurts me deep in my heart
你还在我心上某一个地方
看着你为了他
失魂落魄不说一句话
但是我的心现在却比你还伤

I could see I love you
It hurts me deep in my heart
我不能像你这样说分了就忘
我这样是坚强
还是忘了爱的勉强
让你看透我的心现在我不想
是该说放就放
就试着遗忘

痛苦我会遗忘
只想看你开心的模样
新的恋情让它成长
而过去
就放在心上

NICE RIGHT THIS SONG ?
thank you jun for sending this song . :3
HAHA .
YES , I LIKE A CHINESE SONG .
not th first one !
th first one is isaac send me de !
NICE OKAY ! :3
so , i like TWO chinese songs .
HAHA . :D

AND DAMIEN SCARED ME JUST NOW.
IN GEOG ROOM.
DAMN YOU DAMIEN.
STOP MAKING ME SCREAM YOU FREAKING MORON . -.-
ass ! :D

blahhhhhhhhhs ,
okays ,
i have to go back to maple alrs !
haha !
update again ltr bah ! :D cyas . <3

4 weeks .
and im over you.