Another sleepless night.
I'm still staring at the ceiling
I can hear her fighting with him for no good reason .
Will this ever end ?
Another day goes by and nothing changed he's still the same .
I can here him crying ,
and she thinking he's the one to blame .

Faber Drive rocks .
Bye .

my contacts are so mother fucking blurry .
fuck .

i'm so sick and tired of being sick and tired .

why does everything have to be so complicated ?
got so many things to worry about .
school , o lvls , tests , love , friends , blablabla .
fuck .
and then there are those dogs .
and other stuff .
for fuck sake man .
if i lose my patience i swear everyone will run .
-'-
i'm about to lose my sanity alr .
why does so many things have to happen now ?

i really need you in my life .
you know this really sucks .
before all these problems , i alr had trouble figuring myself out .
now this shit has to happen .
i'm just damn confused .

confused about you . confused about him . confused about her . confused about them .
confused about every fucking thing .
thank god xinyi has a fucking phone now .
i think i'll die if she doesn't .
there is no one else that knows everything about me .
and there is no one i'd tell everything single fucking thing to anyway .

ahhhhhhhhhhhhhh . whateverrrrrrr .



shit la . fuck la .
-'-

i swear the next person that pisses me off will die .
i'm in a fucking foul mood .

and as usual , only xinyi knows why .
and i'm keeping it that way .








okay byeeeeeeeeeee .
-.-




i know you said you don't want to contact me .
i know you said you have to get over me .
but you've been there for me since january .
don't you know that i will miss you being here ?
don't you know that you're one of my best friends ?
don't you know that this is so fucking hard for me ?
you've been the one that made me laugh when i'm pissed .
you've been the one that made me smile when i'm sad .
you've been the one that acted totally retard on the phone to make me laugh .
you've been the one gave me funny nicknames .
you were the one that helped me when the bitch scolded me .
you were the one that sent me songs .
you're the one that knows me almost as well as xinyi does .
you're the one that lent me shirts .
you're the one i could always count on to cheer me up .
but now , i really dont know .
:/

this feeling is totally horrible .
its like something is missing .
someone is missing .
ohfuckthisworldman.
just fuck this life . :]

i just noticed i'm sun burnt .
shitzxz . -.-
LOL . bye .

helloooo .
fucking tired manzxc .
woke up at 7 .
reached sch at 8 . -.-
had physics . :O
till 10 . then went marine parade there .
lol .
at 2+ went back to sch there .
slack somemore .
4+ took bus home .

was actually supposed to go pick my brother up .
but refused to go . for some reasons .
my mom scolded me . lol .
whatever .
scold la . idc .
i say i cannot go means i cannot go la . -.-

when i reached home , rosi called me .
tell me go parkway .
STUPID!
bleh .
but i didnt go . too late alr . :O
i'm alr at homeeee . ;X

okay whatever .
seriously confused . O.o
and pek chek . -.-
thanks ah . thank you so much la .
zz .

You think you're special .
But i know , and you know , and we know .
That you're not .
-'- :]

hello idiots . :D
LOOL .
just back from chem night lessons . :]
screamed like hell thanks to yiting and damien .
-.-
idiots .
scare people very fun mehhhhhhhh . bleh .
today damn fun sia .
mdm wong didnt come .
then very slack .
plus plus plus , tmr no chem !
hee . so lessons end at 10 !
heng ah ! :D
looooool .

went to watch a movie before night lesson .
according to rosi , kimmy , eve and damien ate like pigs today , again . :P
damien siao lor . ytd eat , today eat again . -.-
pigpigpig .
and some idiot keep stuffing M&Ms into my mouth during the movie .
stupid . so many at one time somemore .
IDIOTTTTTTTTTTTTTT .
1, 2, 3 . jump ! :D

then went for night lessons .
mrs fong separated me , kimmy , eve and rosi . -'-
D:
i sat with eve . ;3
at first i was super hyper . :P
eve kept saying , WHATS WRONG WITH YOU ?!
then i kept saying , I'M ELATED !
LOOOOL .
so fucking retarded . :P
then after that EVELYN got elated .
:P
and i got emo . xD
we take turns hor . :P
one emo , one elated .
:D
then after the break i read kimmy's magazine .
i swear , night lessons are boring . -.-
i didnt bring Eclipse to read .
stupid . next week i'll bring Breaking Dawn for night lesson .
SHIHYAO'S BREAKING DAWN .
-smug smile-
YOU'RE NOT GETTING IT BAAAAAAAACK . :D
WAHAHAHAHAAA .

okay bye noobs . ;D

Feels like insomnia .
Can't sleep through the pain .

today went for sushi buffet .
waste my money lor .
i hardly ate . -.-
we had an eating competition .
LOL .
me, yiting and damien one team .
joel, rosi and shuling one team .
joel and damien are pigs.
idk who won .
cause after about 1+ hour i went to tm .
to find xinyi, evelyn and huijuan .
walked around for awhile .
then bus-ed to parkway with xinyi .
had a reeaaally good long talk with her .
finally .. she warned me about things ..
and told me to be ready for the worst .
and i told her all my worries . :]
i feel a bit better now .
thanks mummy . :]
for listening .

then went tuition .
blablablaaaa .
okayy , bye .

there is nothing more precious than life and nothing more wondeful than death . :]
dying is cool.
dying is fun.
i want to be a vampire.
-.-

ah . for fuck sake .
i swear there is something wrong with me .
this morning , i played the song Crush by David Archuleta .
and burst into laughter . for no fucking reason .
wtf is so funny about the song ?
and i get seriously pissed and moody for no fucking reason .
and i have no appetite .
i seriously mood swing like mad .
even evelyn was scared of me ytd .
lol . -.-
all i did was throw the fucking fries into the fucking box .

and i'm currently in a bad mood .
why ? i have no idea .
ah fuck .
byeeee .

disappointed .
fucked up .

note to everyone : don't talk to me . -.-

yay i hate my life . :]

today was an okay day afterall .
even though i was super pek chek during chem .
i was like fucking punching the chem lab table .
and ranting to kimmy about idiots .
heh .
elonah was super funny after sch lor .
randomly shouting at ppl . OI YOU STARE AT US FOR WHAT ?
she shouting at random ppl .
laugh until stomach pain like fuck .
LOOOL . :D

like i said in my previous post ,
i wont take anymore nonsense .
since everything is said and done .
i shall not expect anymore trouble from the few of you .
stay out of my way .
and do not go around lying about the confrontation .
if you want to gossip about it .
for fuck sake , say nothing but the truth .
if you guys are still unhappy ,
then come to us personally like we did to you guys .
do not xia suay yourself , my friends and i by coughing like morons in public .
thats all .

I'm just gonna say , i told you so .
Don't stand there crying now , loser .
Face the fucking consequences .

And for fuck sake ,
don't test me again .

Don't know what i'm getting myself into .
Don't know how i got here .
I just wanna get out of this shit .
I can't take it anymore .
All these confusion .
I'm so confused . I'm lost .
Ahhh . Fuck . :/

Pictures from last week . :O



Mine .Evelyn's.

Changed blog skin . :D
I don't really care if you like it . o.o
Okayy . Bye . :]

Okay , i'm bored .
Lols .
Bye . :O

had chem and physics today .
went kfc after lessons .
saw a lesbian couple in the bus while going home .
sick .
seriously .
-.-

okay bye .
-confused-

Feeling seriously annoyed now .
Don't know who and what to believe .
I'm fucking confused now .
Only Xinyi knows what i'm talking about .
Ha . -.-
I've been thinking and thinking and thinking .
Wahlao .
zzzzzzzzzz .
nights .

Hello .
Today was quite a good day . :]
Hee .

Tuesday ;
Normal sch day .
Went clb .
The annoyingly bhb temasek boys didn't come .
Heh .
Jer didn't come either .
BLEH .
After clb went parkway for dinner .
Then walked around for awhile .
Then went homeee . :]

Today ;
Got A1 for bio , e maths and a maths test .
Haha .
Was so happy . :]
I understood everything taught in physics .
Finally i learn things during physics .
Ms Faizah rocks . :]
Done finish all my homework .
Seriously bored .
I want read Eclipse la . -.-
Sian .
OI SOMEONE LEND ME LA . -'-
x.x
Lol .
Okay i go liaooo . :]
Bye .

We're to the point of no return and the only thing we've learnt is how to hurt each other .
I don't wanna wait another minute . Put me out of this misery .
Try to forget all the fights and how we almost made it but never did .

During physics we learnt that some animals , eg dogs and bats , can hear ultrasound .
No wonder those dogs shout we normal humans cant hear .
Only they can hear themselves .
Too "loud" or too high frequency ? :]
Hor kimmy ? Hor rosi ? :]
I love physics .

& my class changed teacher to Ms Faiza .
She is a wonderful teacher .
Teaches very well . :]
And funny too . Thank goodness we have her now .

And Edward is the love . :]
-rolls eye at ShihYao-
Jacob is a , quoted from Alice , DOG . :3
Get over it . Jacob sucks .
ShihYao = Laurent . Pathetic little vampire that got KILLED by DOGS .
Hee . :3
Lols . Sorry for the random post .
Read finish New Moon within 24 hours .
Currently obsessing about the Twilight Saga .
It puts all other love stories to shame .
Seriously .
Hee .
&& ShihYao , Edward still rocks . Alot more than you and Jacob . :D

Heh . -.-
Hi .
Just finished tuition .
Whatever .
Nothing much to post about .
I'm kinda numb alr .
When people are suddenly out of your life .
Sometimes it feels horrible .
Getting used to it alr . :]
Losing friends for no actual reason .
Except that its better for them .
Oh whatever .
Byeeee .

Oh , and you're still not off the hook .
I still hate you . :]

Happy valentines day .
Yay ?
Today is a particular couple's 1 year anni .
LOLS .
Super cliche la .
Boringgg .

Bleh . I wonder which couples will break up today .
:3
So cool . :]
Break up on valentines day .
Come on kimmy & Rosi . Lets curse some people* . :]
Wheeee . :]

Bye .

Hello .
Back to update .

Monday ;
Kinda forgot what happen alr.
-.-
Hmm .
Wtf happened on monday ah . Zz .
Don't know la . Can't rmb . Lols .
I only can rmb i read finished Twilight .
OH YEAH . Phototaking .
Fxck lor .
Then only tell us about the photo taking ON THE DAY ITSELF .
zz ?

Tuesday ;
Hmm . Went sch .
Rushed like siao after geog .
Evelyn's dad sent me , eve and kimmy to Singapore Poly .
For some open house thingy .
For DMC . O:
Diploma in Media and Communication .
Did fun stuffs .
Evelyn became the model for her group . LOL .
Luckily me and kimmy same group . -.-
Hee . ;3
Then took mrt home .
Danm funny .
When reaching to eunos , Kimmy and Eve were like .
Wahlao how go out ? So many people blocking .
Then i was like , like this lar .
Then i shouted , EXCUSE ME .
Everyone stared . LOL .
Then started to siam even before reached eunos .
HA .
Then at tanah merah , which is my stop ,
i walk to the door , just take one step only .
Everyone faster siam alr .
LOL . Fucking funny .
I started laughing .
Wth lahs .
Song boh . :P
Hee . ;3

Wednesday ;
Bio test today ! O:
Lols . Quite okay leh . :]
Had netball photo taking . Lols .
And netball training too .
I nowadays go for training carrying my phone lor .
LOL . I don't even care .
I run my stupid 2.4 with it .
And the rest of the training slack with yiting . :]
Then went tech view . Met xinyi .
Went home with her .

Thursday
Blahs .
Went to music with kimmy and xinyi as usual . O:
Eat eat and slack there .
Went parkway to collect the new box of contacts .
Then went home .
Bathed then chiong to tuition .
Didn't do anything during tuition lor .
Was just stoning there and laughing at jokes .
Then went home , studied abit for ss .
Did e maths probability homework .
Left one question only . Got lazy .
Went sleep .

Today ;
Lols .
Today ah .
Today rocks . :]
Lolol .
After sch went tech view with xinyi, kimmy and evelyn .
I was like super high .
I accidentally made rosi spill something on herself !
HAHA .
Whee . ;3
Then went back sch , kimmy went npcc .
Eve went physics remedial .
Me and Xinyi walked around sch .
Listening to songs .
Then i went geog remedial .
Then rushed to parkway with Damien , Yiting and Evelyn .
Bought New Moon .
And lotsa food .
Rushed back to sch for ss night lessons .
School so dark lor . -.-
Ha .
Blah .
Was reading New Moon through out the lesson .
Heh .
Then bus-ed home .
Aaaand , thats all . :]
Bye .

Jer's shirt . Nice ? Nice right . Yes i know . :O

Yo .
Lols .

Just back from parkway . -.-
Went so many places today .
Bleh .
In the morning went sch for chem lessons . BLAH .
I'm getting sick of QA . Seriously . So many experiments .
Zz .
Today made like , 2 poisonous gases ?
Fucking smelly lor . -.-
Lols .

Then went home , bathed , blablabla .
And wore Jer's shirt . :D
His shirt so nice lor . -.-
Then went to cityhall . Met kimmy and rosi .
Walked to suntec .
Waited for Darren they all .
Went some jap buffet place .
Stupid lor .
Girls should sit at the seat with the back rest.
And boys should sit on the stools . D:
:P
But noooo , Darren, Chee Eng and WeiChi sat inside .
Ass . DD:
LOL .
Then ate and laughed like siao .
Almost kena choked .
I keep calling Darren , noob brother noob brother !
LOL . :D
Then went playground .
Take photos . They're with kimmy .
No idea where she is now .
I want the photos !
Rawr .
Then play play play .
Then walked around suntec awhile .

Anyway . After suntec we went to Esplanade .
For Rosi to buy her posters .
Went outside of the esplanade to emo for awhile .
Then i went off by myself . Cause i was late alr .
4months ago , when i was walking out with you , i wondered to myself .
I wondered if i would ever have to walk out of here alone .
now , 4 months later .
I really am leaving alone .
Anyway , took train to tpy .
But reached too late . So didn't get to meet Jer .
I feel so evil . D:
My mom dragged me away .
And he waited for me downstairs .
Stupid mom .
Then went parkway .
Camped at borders till 8 .
Went to my other condo . Walked around the condo .
Super dark . Kinda creepy .
Suited my mood though .
Then at around 9+
Went and buy bubble tea .
Then bus-ed home .
And now here i am .
Ha .

Okay bye .

Hi .
Lols .
Finally able to use the comp again . -.-
Okay , updating time .

Thursday ;
Uhh . Nothing much happened i guess .
Had physics test . Blah ?
After sch had remedial .
And Mr Ho is currently my favourite teacher . :]
For reasons that will remain unknown to most people . :]
Chionged home , went dentist then tuition .
Came back , did chem summary notes till 1am .
Then slept .
Tada . Boring day .

Today ;
Lols . Hmm .
Normal day , with chem test after school .
Seriously damn hard sia .
Fucking weird molecular structures .
How the fuck if i know whether they are alkene, alkane, alcohol or carboxylic acid .
Wtf .
Shit lahs . Want A1 de lehs .
Now if i pass i happy liao lor . Tmd .
Then went for lunch .
Went parkway . Met my mom .
Ordered contacts .
Next wednesday then come.
Sian bodoh . Still so long . Z . D:
Lols . Anyway , bought Twilight .
The book . I don't know why also .
But the book really damn nice .
The vocabulary luh .
" I was unconditionally and irrevocably in love with him . "
:O . Lols .




Yesterday when i was doing my darn chemistry notes ,
i just played my phone playlist .
The song Turn Around by Samantha Jade suddenly played .
Fuck . Suddenly flooded with memories .

Is it me , or did we agree to love ?
Don't leave me out here all alone . I'm still right here . Where'd you go ?
Look around don't you feel somehting missing ? I'm the one you promised you would love .
While i'm holding on , please turn around .
Look back and see me now . Don't let me down . Please turn around .


Okay bye people .

And seriously . Stop your fucking starings . You and your friends .
Fuck off . Or you'll regret it .
Don't piss me off even more .
Bitch .
Don't think i'm afraid of you . Cause i'm not .
You're just a little kid . Don't get in my way .
-'-

Hi .
I know i'm not supposed to use th comp , but what the hell . :D
Anyway lemme update ! :]

Monday ;
Went school ,
Since not in eng remedial , me and Evelyn went to kimmy's house after school .
She had to change contacts . O:
Then went to tech view to eat ,
Rushed back to school for geog/ss remedial but we were actually the first .
-.-
Then after remedial went Xinyi's class to find her .
With chips . Cause she was apparently extremely hungry .
Ha .
Bus-ed home with her .
Went home , talked on phone with Jer .
Cause he was doing his e maths , and i alr learnt that part ,
Helped him a bit .
Tried contacts . Put on in 5 mins . Whee . :D
Then called Jer again . He was being retarded .
Keep singing . LOL .
Then went to sleep . :]


Tuesday ;
Had clb . Bleh .
Jer didn't go lor . He went mindchamp . Stupid .
Lols . Then our clb class got split sia . Wtf .
Kimmy in one class , me and Evelyn in another class .
Poor kimmy !
My class got alot boys lo . -.-
Only 3 girls , including me . And one of th girl is from my primary sch lehhh ! :D
Clb got 2 girls from my primary sch alr . So cool cans . :]

Then in the row beside me and Evelyn got 3 boys from Temasek Secondary lah .
Then Evelyn was like , keep looking at me , cause we talking ma .
Then the guy in the middle thought Evelyn was looking at him .
Pathetic lo ! Bhb !
LOL .
Cause i heard him saying to his friend , " why that girl ah , keep staring at me . "
When Evelyn was obviously staring at me . Noob noob !
Then when walking out of the school , me , Evelyn and Kimmy talk crap la .
Then one of the 3 boys was like , " retarded . "
Then another boy said , " Shut up la . At least their face nicer than yours . "
Lame shit . Lolol .
Walked to the bus stop ,
then one of the 3 boys said , " Eh , that girl is the one keep staring at you ah ? " when Evelyn was walking .
Then Eve seriously got pissed and shouted ,
" Bhb la ! Who want stare at you sia !! "
I don't know if they heard or not . LOLLL .
Then they 3 got into same bus as us on the way home lo ! Wahlao .
Had to walk pass them while getting down . Sibei paiseh . Don't know why also . -.-
Went home , did homework , then went sleep . :]


Today ;
Lols . Today nothing much lo .
Went school . Felt like sleeping .
Had maths and informal letter writing test . Gah .
I got 24/25 for th bloody maths test . Shit eh .
Confirm careless mistake .
Fuckzx .
My class 95.1% distintions okay .
Fuck that ms Rahma . Don't like our class . Say our class noob .
Our class better than your classes ley .
Biased fuck . See your class or our class more As la hor .
Asshole . -.-
Went ss remedial , did geog homework during that . ;X
Then went netball late . Cause went class for a bit of maths remedial .
Actually i go there walk walk and talk nia . O:
Then went netball . Run 2.4 , sit down watch the others play ,
Then go home .
Ran inside house , grab my male formal shirt , put in bag ,
grab bio notes , run out of house while shouting to my bro .
" EH TELL HER I GO GIVE JEREMY THINGS . BYE "
LOL .
Then walk walk walk to the 7-11 .
Met him . Exchanged shirts .
Wheee . Watermelon scented shirt , hor ? :P
Haha . Then walked home .
When i enter the house , my mom was like ,
" Since when you walk out of the house ? "
I was like . Laughing like hell .
Then bathed , and used comp . :]
Now i'm gonna eat dinner . Byee . :]



Diao simi diao la .
Diao lan la .
Cbk .
Bitch . -'-

Hi .
Just came back from church and parkway . :]
Ate lunch at parkway .
Super spicy pasta okay .
My mouth my was burning like hell . -.-
Then saw Jer at parkway also .
Lolol . He claims he was wearing a sexy v-neck shirt .
Bleh .
Didn't notice .
I only saw him for like . 5seconds lor !
And my brother was like damn annoyed that he couldn't meet Jer's bro .
LOL . He was like , " Waaahlaaoo . Where is Timothyyy . "
-.- They like alr met yesterday right . Sheesh . Lol .
Then went home .
Kayy , update later . :]
Tuition now .