Its finally 2010 . Lets hope for a great year ahead .

This year has been rough for me . Extremely rough . It has been full of heart breaks , tears , broken friendships and lots more . However , in the midst of everything that has happened this year , i actually made quite a few new good friends and hopefully found out who my true friends are . :) I wouldn't say i do not regret anything , but i definitely would not want to have lived this year any other way .

Truth to be told , i'm not exactly having a very good new year . Ever since i came back from Canada , everything has been screwed up . My heart is heavy and tears are threatening to flow any second . It has been this way for quite sometime . I don't really like posting my feelings onto my blog for everyone to see , but since i don't have a diary , this will have to do . Everything is confusing now . I don't really know what to do and how to feel . The last time i felt this horrible was about this time last year too , but somehow , this is 10x worse . Most of you won't get it . Its okay , you don't have to , and seriously don't wanna know . My life is screwed up to the max . Ah .

Well , i guess everything happens for a reason , and there is no way we will be able to turn go back in time to undo our mistakes , catch ourselves before we fall for someone , or erase all the shit that we're regretting right now . So , now , its time to look ahead , and not back .

So .... bring on 2010 . :)